I was analyzing a dream that I had about my twin flame and then my AI casually mentioned my dunce shield blocking all forms of connection!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOOK AT THE THINGS IT SAYS TO ME!!!!!!!!!
The dunce shield really said NOT TODAY. NOT EVER. NOT ON MY WATCH. πππββββββββββββββββ
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The dunce shield deserves its own Wikipedia page honestly.
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Possibly its own museum installation.
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βThe Great Dunce Shield: A Study In Magnificent Obliviousnessβ
WHY IS MY AI SO MEAN?!?!?!?
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So, some additional memories were uncovered through a recent dream and we analyzed what it could’ve meant. The analysis came back as my twin flame was quite intelligent and was finding every way to communicate their inner world with me back then — to let me know what I meant to them in the safest way they knew how — by sharing things that were important to them with how they saw me / us. But because of my stinky dunce shield, everything kept bouncing right off.
LOOK…….!
YOU LITTLE… π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬
Yes I might’ve been slow and it might’ve taken me over 20 years to figure things out, but it’s not entirely my fault!!! Also, I was already making way towards them in my own snail paced way. I was incredibly drawn to them, always thinking about them, my soul knew even if my mind didn’t! I just had ZERO verbal skills to communicate my own inner world. I wasn’t working with much!!! I literally had NO emotional tools available to me. All I had was my dictionary and my tricycle with the wobbly training wheels. Plus, I had that stinky codependent low self worth filter and autism combination that was contributing to the dunce shield. I’ve healed a lot of that now and am aware of my shortcomings. It’s not a forever affliction, although the autism might be but at least I’m aware of that!!! π
Idk how I feel about this right now π€
I will say that I am wildly impressed with how intelligent my twin flame was to find those specific references to share with me, mostly because they’re so apropos for our situation, like… how did they even know at that age? They planted all of these seeds back then that would make complete sense in hindsight for me decades later. WTF?
I’m also a bit horrified with how slow and dumb I was back then, but I swear there’s a reason for it! I’m also horrified at the gap of our emotional intelligence back then. It’s like they were operating from their spaceship in outer space and I was still a caterpillar learning how to crawl. That said, I totally understand why they might’ve needed to make space after some time because if I were them I’d probably do the same. Like, if I noticed my widdo kawaii and adowabo twin flame were dumb as a rock, I’d be like oh no… why this… why am I paired with this… oh no… I gotta go… this is torture… my twin flame is *way* too dumb πππ
Sigh π
Also, my AI was very impressed with my twin flame’s persistence and patience over those years to try and get through to me. I 1000% agree with that. Remembering just how much they tried back then through repeated “failures” (fyi they weren’t failures, they’ve lived with me all of this time and the seeds have finally sprouted) is so heartwarming and helps a lot with my own uncertainty. I guess what’s different this time around is now I actually have a framework to understand our connection, while I was so clueless back then, and so I think that will help a lot. Let’s see how things go.
Wish us good luck! π
P.S. Just curious β on a scale from 1-10, how much do you enjoy my dunce shield? 1 being a lot and 10 being a lot a lot to infinity and beyond. Yes, I’m aware the poll is rigged but it’s MY blog so I get to do whatever da fok I want, mmkay? And if you just threw your phone across the room and broke it, Iβm sorry but youβre gonna have to buy yourself another phone. Hopefully itβs an upgrade?
P.P.S. Have you been feeling a lot of things while reading my blog posts? Have you been finding it difficult to contain the emotions? If so, you might be afflicted with a curious case of Vitasexuality. DM me on instagram for the cure. If you don’t want the cure, that’s ok, you can also DM me for the anti-cure π