I have some good news to share! I think I finally figured out what was messing up my energy levels and have been making positive changes in that department.
For some time, I had been yoyo-ing between feeling healthy and sick, which negatively impacted my energy levels quite dramatically. I didn’t tie it back to my eating habits but finally when I saw it, I was able to fix it. So far so good, fingers crossed! 🤞
I also started this probiotic over a month ago that seems to be working pretty well. I’ve taken it daily and my cravings have completely shifted. I’m now craving more actual raw foods than processed, which I’m sooooooooo relieved about. I never knew why I’d get those crazy cravings and didn’t link it back to my gut bacteria lol. Hopefully all of these will continue to make meaningful changes.
Oh, my parents visited recently to celebrate the lunar new year. When I saw my mom, I lifted up my shirt to show her my belleh. I was like, “LOOK MA, IT’S SO MUCH SMALLER NOW! THE PROBIOTIC IS WORKING!!!” She was like, “WOWWW, I CAN SEE THAT! GOOD JOB!!!” 👏 👏 👏 👏
And then she proceeded to cook the most delicious foods the entire week and now my belleh is back………. 😔
A booty in the back AND a booty in the front?!?! I know I’m all about abundance and stuff… but idk how I feel about this much abundance especially in this particular area. I can really do without the front booty…………
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! 😔
Anyway, my parents requested for some cookies to bring home again this time. They said last time’s cookies were really bad. I was like yeah I know lol, why did you take them home? We should’ve tossed them lmao. Thankfully, I ended up baking them correctly this time and they loved it! So, that was good. Imma plump my parents up with my delicious buttery sugary cookies!!! They’ll get front booties too!!!!!
Now that my parents have left, I can go back to my regular diet and hopefully get rid of the belleh 😤
Anyway, as I’ve been experiencing more energy lately, it has actually allowed me to start that program I’ve been meaning to start! It took me a few days but I finally finished the training camp!!! Unfortunately, I felt was a bit too surface level and short. I was hoping they’d go more in depth with certain aspects, rather than just covering the basics, but it’s fine. AI said it’s not realistic for a beginner program to go that in depth with strategy and so I’d have to look elsewhere, which makes sense.
I ended up searching on YouTube for some strategies to help me get started. Thankfully, I found a few good videos that seem legit so I’ve been studying those. I’m quite proud of myself for making so much progress after having so much resistance for so long. But I guess it’s more like I needed to be at this point before I could even get started? Idk. We’ll see. I am feeling quite motivated and am looking forward to learning more! Also, having consistent energy seems to be helping me get through things.
It’s funny because during the training camp, I did some practice runs and I failed all 3 tries lol. I was like wowwweee……… what are the odds? I really suck at this, LOL! My hunches in this field appear to be completely awful lmfao. AI said that’s actually a good thing though, that not having beginner’s luck will help me see things differently. Because if I keep getting things right without much effort, it could all just be luck and I can fall flat on my face later. So, I guess building up the good habits and learning things properly will be important. I don’t mind taking my time to really understand things. I guess it’s back to beginner’s mind!
What’s fascinating is as I’ve been getting back into this stuff and picking and choosing things to move forward with, I’ve been analyzing and interpreting what I’ve been seeing with my AIs and they’ve been confirming my thought process. So, I guess I’m feeling better that I’m not a complete novice now that I have some proper tools. It’s funny because one of my AIs reflected back to me that my whole MO seems to be wanting to see reality as it is, not just what I want, even when it’s painful, and apparently that is the exact skill I need to succeed in this field. I was like oh snap, you’re right lol. Seeing what I want to see vs seeing what’s actually happening is going to have a huge impact on performance. So that was good to know that I’ve been on the right track. Apparently, I’ve been unknowingly training in this direction with my personal growth work?
Also, I went out the other day! Aren’t you proud of me?! I went on a Target run and bought myself some extra kitchen utensils that I’ve been meaning to get. I got this tiny spatula that’s just for cookies and it’s the cutest widdo spatula on earth. I love it so muchhhhhhhhh 😭😭😭
The little hermit has left the home and immediately came back. One location per month is good enough for me 😊. I’m so proud of myself *pats myself on my back 💪
Anyway, baby steps I guess. Just grateful to be happy and healthy. Looking forward to what’s to come. Wish me good luck 😊
P.S. Sigh, I fokked up my sleep schedule again AND I think I pulled a neck muscle 😩 imma geriatric vampire hisssssssssssssss