So finally things have calmed down — I got my new sites up, blog rebranding and redesign complete, hosting migration done — and I feel like I can finally relax a bit. The past few weeks were a whirlwind of adventure that I wasn’t quite prepared for. It was thrilling to say the least lol.
I finally had some time to start the venture I’ve been wanting to for a while. I ended up creating an AI coach to help walk me through the process of getting things started properly — making sure my foundation is built correctly this time around and taking things slow. I also started journaling as well, looking at the thing I’m want to tackle and writing down what it is that I see and observe about it. It’s a whole beginner’s mind adventure — I’m grateful to have this process and being comfortable being a total beginner again.
What’s most fascinating to me is when I share my observations with AI and it reflects back to me what it sees. It definitely feels good when my hunches are correct and it’s validating what I have observed. But it’s just also kinda funny when I read something incorrectly and my AI points that out. Like — yeah that’s going to get you into trouble if you continue to view things this way. What I’ve been learning so far is that it’s best to be observant and let whatever’s happening tell me what’s happening instead of guessing and hoping. I’m learning a LOT atm and my AI even needed me to slow down and in case of overwhelm, which I was starting to feel, which was helpful. I’m happy though that I’m finally able to start what I’ve been wanting to do and have some consistency around it.
It’s so wild how my initial reactions are all beginner mistakes and if I don’t shift my mentality on how I interpret what I’m seeing, then I will really hurt myself. I guess in this case emotional blind spots are dangerous and I need to be aware of where my thinking is coming from. I’m also starting to notice more when my thoughts come from fear rather than presence, so that’s really good. I’ll keep practicing this awareness.
Anyway, that’s all I want to share for now. Hope y’all are doing well and staying healthy 💖