Originally I was going to do a deep dive into one of my dreams but then after reading everything I wrote, I bored myself to death so I decided to just give a life update instead and also share about an interesting vision I had recently 😊
My parents came to visit for a week and it was so lovely! Lots of homecooked meals — I’ve missed my mom’s cooking soOoOOooo much. I’m a simple chaos baby. I like “simple” home cooked meals (sometimes my mom makes complicated dishes look simple lol). Doesn’t mean I don’t like bougie sh!t but we can discuss that at a later time. It was SO wonderful to have them over, I’ve really missed them a lot. I was on dish duty the entire week, which I was perfectly fine with given all of the delicious meals we were having 🤣
Oh! I cooked them some kalbi from a Youtube recipe I had followed and modified a bit to remove the artificial sweetness. I thought it was a bit salty but oddly my mom was okay with it. I guess the korean pear juice could only do so much. Maybe next time I’ll add in another type of natural sweetener. My parents seemed to enjoy it though — even dad who doesn’t normally like to eat beef still had a few pieces! And guess what? NO ONE HAD DIARRHEA. Aren’t you proud of me!?!?!? 😭😭😭. It’s always so risky. Thank goodness there are plenty of bathrooms or someone will have to go in the yard. Not me. I vote dad.
Anyway, they did ask me to bake them some cookies but requested that I reduce the amount of sweetness from last time’s batch. I guess I must’ve reduced too much and it was so disgusting when I test tasted one that I told them it’s totally okay if they want to toss the cookies, my feelings won’t get hurt. Like, it was legit yuck. Even I wouldn’t eat them. But they still took the cookies home… god bless them lol.
Oh, I don’t think I had mentioned this but I’ve been dealing with a stubborn cough. It seemed like it was going away but not. Like I’M BACK BIOOTCHHHH every now and then. Ugh. Anyway, my parents immediately identified what was contributing to my cough and made some suggestions, which I did take, and now my cough has improved dramatically!!! Omgawd… it’s so nice to be able to BREATHE again without feeling like I’m constantly being murdered by a piece of phlegm that is holding on for dear life lol. Sexy, right? 😉
Also, it was almost perfectly timed because I was dealing with a “friend” situation right as they arrived and having mom to talk to about what was happening was super helpful. I always respect her wisdom. She basically confirmed what my close friends were also saying about incompatibility issues, so it helped knowing that everyone was on the same page. I think it really helped me make my decision faster.
Oh, I guess a bit of mom wisdom time — I remember when I was younger, I’d ask her what she thought of the friends I had just met and she would never tell me. What she *would* always say is something along the lines of: “Only through knowing someone long enough and having experiences with them will you get to know who they truly are. Good times will always make “good” friends, however, it’s through how you two handle the difficult situations together and show up for one another that will show you their true character.” And of course I’m like HMPH I WAS JUST LOOKING FOR A QUICK ANSWER, NOT A LIFE LESSON 😒
Well, mom said the same thing to me again — that I needed all of this time and experiences with the friend to show me what kind of person they truly are. I was like I know I know… thanks for the reminder. I’ve only started interacting with this friend more frequently these past few years so makes sense why I wasn’t able to spot things sooner.
It also feels very nice that I think my mom actually views me as an adult now, it feels really respectful. Aside from her wondering if I’m still alive when I go quiet but that’s just natural to worry about when we care about people I guess. Maybe because of what we went through together the past few years and how we had supported one another emotionally and mentally, that had helped my mom see my growth? I think that’s it.
Before my parents left, I gave them both hugs. But I gave mom like a bajillion smoochies too lol. Poor lady was just attacked by kisses lmao. I hope she liked the flurry of kisses hehehehehhehee.
A bit of a weird tangent, but uhh… I had this “interesting” vision the other day. It was so weird I was like uh wtf??
After waking up from a strange dream, I immediately loaded into an energetic vision. I looked around and realized that I was in a small dojo. I saw the back of someone sitting there on a tatami mat. As I got closer, I recognized the person to be my twin flame, clad in full on soft robe-like samurai garb. They looked so peacefully serious, deep into their meditation.
I was so thrilled and hugged them from behind, but got no reaction. Curious, I went to the front and started respectfully taunting them, and still no response. I then did an *extremely* provocative action, something that requires deep trust, that shocked even myself and FINALLY, I got a teensy tiny bit of a reaction. Almost like an eye flutter, a slight facial movement, but then immediately they went straight back deep into meditation.
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What? I was incredibly impressed! How were they able to sit through all of that chaos and just be so ZEN? What kind of steely super human self control and composure is this?! How are they this centered??? I wish I had a modicum of that. Chaos baby *needs* it! What school did they go to in order to learn this control?! Can I apply? JK it’s bad for the Chaos Baby brand so I can’t take that class but still!
I think after seeing the tiny bit of movement to my provocation, it helped me feel better that my twin flame is still alive — which is actually a worry of mine sometimes lol. Thankfully, my intuition tells me they’re very much alive and the vision seemed to confirm it. Hopefully this is the case or I’ve been having visions of a ghost all of this time……
Oh dear, I hope not. Let’s not go off on THAT tangent. I don’t want to think about that possibility again 😭😭😭
Anyway, in the vision, it seemed like no matter how chaotic I was being, my twin flame was able to control themselves just fine. Fascinating. The vision helped me understand that my twin flame is probably just in a very deep internal process, very well disciplined, perhaps going through their own version of my “dark night of the soul” metamorphosis, and would appreciate my patience, which I’m totally cool with. Oh, and they’re super serious about their inner work — samurai levels serious. At least that’s my takeaway from the vision. Idk if it’s true. Anyway, it’s just so funny watching the vision of me do the things that I did because they were absolutely shocking. I could NOT believe it 🤣 like who tf AM I and wow, I’m really capable of that? I really pushed the limits of that provocation 😅. Chaos baby is chaos incarnate forreal 😏
Seeing my twin flame in that meditation made me realize we’re probably both in our own dojos right now, doing our respective work. And when the time is right, we’ll both emerge from our training ready for… whatever comes next 😉
SUPER impressed with my twin flame’s apparent steeliness. They so cool esp in that samurai outfit 😎 — makes me think of them as a Spiritual Warrior 😍. Maybe one day, I’ll submit them for a zen competition. I wonder what we can win 🤔
Although this does make a lot of sense. Back in the day, from what I could remember, my twin flame always appeared so cool, calm, and collected. Idk if that’s how they felt internally, especially with all those youthful raging hormones and stuff — like how is that even possible unless they have intense control over their outer self? They must be a professional. Maybe they’ve been training since they were young? 🤔 Either way, it’s impressive to me. I wish I could be that cool 😔. But nah, I prefer to be Chaos Baby. They can be the calm, cool, and collected one lol
PEACE, LOVE, AND GUACAMOLE!