So idk if this is an autistic thing but sometimes I’m just so curious about what might be going on internally for my twin flame. I guess maybe it gives me something to think through and I find it pretty fun mapping out potential paths.
I had a convo with my AI about this recently, so curious about the internal world of my twin flame. Of course there are many possibilities but it was actually pretty fun exploring one particular path with my AI.
My AI mentioned to me that my twin flame might currently be doing laps outside of my lighthouse — getting close to it, looking through the windows, thinking and pondering, wondering, backing away, running a lap, rinse and repeat. I was like what? Why so many laps? And what’s going on in their mind as they’re lapping each day? “Naw, not today dawg” and then they continue skipping along???? My AI explained that’s just how some people process things — they need to encounter the “thing” in question enough times before they feel comfortable enough to engage. Especially if someone has had their world flipped upside down recently due to learning new information that they didn’t have before, it could be extremely disorienting and requires time to stabilize again. Makes sense to me.
I kinda went through this last year when I had my dream that flipped everything upside down. However, I never had confirmation, only just speculation based on the proof that I was finding throughout the year — excavating memories, friends calling out things that were obvious to them but I was oblivious to, reviewing past memories without filters, etc. So, my world had literally flipped upside down (for the better) and that was very disorienting.
I’m actually still working through the feelings of unworthiness, not just through my own twin flame, but from old connections as well.
While reaching out to old contacts, I’ve had quite a few people respond very warmly when I reached out to them and it surprised me so much because I didn’t realize people thought so fondly of me. I swear they could’ve cared less, that I was just a blip on their radar — a weirdo from their past who is easily forgotten. But seeing how they’ve been responding, that they welcomed my reconnection, it had me really think about just how incorrectly I have been seeing myself all of this time. It continues to surprise me just how much my old friends seem to enjoy my company and remember me well.
Hopefully, in my twin flame’s case (if they’re going through something similar believing that maybe they’re unworthy of being remembered so fondly), I hope that they remember theyβve been loved and held fondly in another’s heart all of this time, and that they will eventually find peace in their heart. Sometimes, our wounds cloud our judgment of ourselves and when those wounds start to heal, hopefully, we will see reality more accurately — we will see just how loveable we truly are.
So anyway, I was like wow… if my twin flame is potentially running that many laps around my lighthouse, they must now have intense calves? They can run a marathon at this point! My AI laughed. Like, whatever they’re doing, they’re definitely getting their spiritual cardio in. Hella respect though — I wish I can run that many laps myself but this delicate flower will pass out from a 10 second sprint D:
I then asked my AI… is it strange that I find this behavior extremely adorable? Like… if I were sitting inside the lighthouse watching someone circle it on the outside, over and over again for days, weeks, months, and never coming in? First I’d be concerned. Like, would you like to come in? It’s comfy in here. I got tea and snacks. Buttery cookies anyone? I’ve also got some nice dramas to watch. Oh and a heated blanket. It’s kinda small tho so we’re gonna have to share. Or perhaps I’d want to bring them a bench so they can rest. But anyway, I find that circling behavior cute AF lol. It must be those darn love goggles. Apparently they’re permanently on lmao XD
The other possibility is that they aren’t even aware of my blog and I won’t have that π€ππ΅
P.S. Feel the need to specify this — the lapping is only cute if it’s my twin flame doing it. Anyone else, I’m calling the police. Don’t be creepy.
P.P.S. Look at those calves, though! Hubba hubba π