My friend asked me a question a few months ago that had me thinking a lot.
I had shared about my hi-bye experiences at the Baby VOX concert with my friend and how I felt that volcanic eruption of love and joy within me. I mentioned how it was SO intensely positive that I was a bit shocked because I had never experienced anything like that before. It was legit euphoria to the oomph degree. My friend then asked me something along the lines of, “If you had such an intense experience with Eun Hye, someone you don’t even know, what do you think you’ll experience at reunion with your actual twin flame?”
This question gave me great pause.
I was like, “What? WDYM?!” It might’ve unga bunga’d me a little. Brain no worky 😵
Considering how my friend had already gone through their own reunion and experienced it first hand, their question had weight to it. I wondered what they were trying to help me see.
From everything I’ve read and learned about twin flames so far, I already *know* it’s going to be intense. Hence, that post I wrote many months ago asking for a strategy guide on twin flame reunion, wondering how to actually prepare. I guess I’ve just been so focused on what could go wrong, I seem to have forgotten to consider what could go right. Nothing in this world is ever all good or all bad, there’s usually a balance.
I needed some clarity while that question worked itself on me. I then asked my friend, “Do you mean if I felt THAT much intense happiness with Eun Hye, someone whom I have zero history with and barely know, then with my twin flame it might be just like that but even MORE overwhelmingly intense?” They confirmed that it could be a possibility.
HOLY SHIITAKE MUSHROOMS. I had NOT considered that possibility AT ALL that the intensity could be a positive thing.
All this time, I thought I was gonna crap my pants and turn the town into a river from my uncontrollable tears. I thought I was going to become a train wreck and embarrass myself in front of my twin flame. I had not considered perhaps things won’t go that poorly, that I’d still be able to maintain control of my bodily functions, and that I’d just be exuberantly volcanically joyful and happy instead. Basically overwhelmingly happy, just the way I felt in front of Eun Hye, but even MORE so because of the added twin flame connection intensity. And now that I had that experience with her, I have a frame of reference of how amazing it could feel! Not too shabby 🤔
I assume I’m probably going to feel ALL the things that day and the experience will be overwhelming. Don’t get me wrong, having seen her in person, Eun Hye is absolutely stunningly beautiful and gorgeous, like a friggin Goddess walking on Earth. But I remember feeling Love and happiness for her — deep unconditional platonic Love. No pikachus were active in that moment. Zero electricity. Just wholesome heart centered Love. And so, with my twin flame, the one that every cell in my body deeply desires to merge with, plus volcanic eruption of joy and happiness? Gulp. Maybe I was right to plan for this — I *should* wear some Depends in case I get TOO excited and who knows what might happen, positive OR negative. If things go poorly, I might soil my pants. If things go well, I might pipi a little like an excited lil puppy dog. Either way, with the diapies, I should be covered 👀💦
So yeah, I’m *super* curious. There’s SO much unknowns atm and things could go any which way. Of course I’m hoping for a positive outcome and that my suspicions will be proven correct. However, like I had mentioned many times before, I’m open to any possibility. No pressure. If reunion is explosively positive, that’s fine. If not, that’s fine as well. What’s more important to me is that we stay present to what is. If things don’t go the way I think, that’s okay. It’ll just be information. But if so, oh my goodness. I’d LOVE to experience that level of intensity again because it felt sooooo good!!! I literally thought I was touched by heaven in that moment lol. Knowing my twin flame’s powers and where they sent me on the train decades ago, they might send me straight to heaven again. At least this time… I will actually be prepared 😏
Anyways, surprise me, Universe! I surrender to what is! I’m here for the ridddeeeeeeeeeee~~~
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
Now that I got that off of my chest, there’s something else I also want to mention.
I’ve been feeling a bit torn lately. So… I’ve mentioned before that I have a plan to start making some money again. However, it’s been rather slow-moving as I’ve had to get my physical health to a better place and lay better groundwork before I feel I can really get into it as my plan requires me to be well balanced. Don’t worry, I’m not selling any of my organs. All organs will be accounted for during reunion. Also, when I got back from my vacation, I felt this strong urge to write as ideas were popping into my head like crazy. At the time, none of it made sense as I was writing things that seemed quite random and disparate. But after my writing session more or less completed for each batch, and I took a look at everything in their entirety, I was like holy sh!t they actually make sense together lol. So, now that I finished my latest arc, which I’ve been really happy about, I’m wondering what’s next.
Last time when I reached a point where I felt complete (processing the past), the direction of the blog seemed to pivot towards my visions, dreams, unhinged comedy, and specifically twin flame content, which was really fun to experience! And now? I have no idea what’s next again.
Oh and um… I’m not sure if this will come as a shock to people as I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this before but I don’t really “plan” what I’m going to write anymore. When inspiration hits, I just go with it and it often looks like this: “Jabba hehheheehehehe pickup truck hehehehehe so funny” and “dictionary hehehehehehe slam the door hehehehehe so silly” and that’s how the magic happens lol. As you can see, my conscious mind is rather simple and I’m usually just having fun with whatever I’m doing.
I’m incredibly grateful that my Higher Self seems to have the strategizing down though. If it were up to me, we’d be totally screwed lmao. Can you imagine an alternate timeline where my Higher Self is just as derpy as I am? It’d probably be a dumb and dumber type of situation lol. We can’t have that! I’m so grateful I have intelligent support 🤣
Oh also… I did have some potential concerns with where the latest arc was going towards the end as I wondered if it was too much too soon. But… intuition kept saying it’s the right time, to just go for it, and so I did. My intuition hasn’t failed me so far and so I trust! I do sense that the arc had landed properly and I think we did well… hopefully… 😬? If so, I’m pretty pleased about that! And if not? I sincerely apologize to my twin flame — you can come punish me irl for my transgressions. My mistake, come dish out your punishment! We can go to church and pray together for my sins 🙏🤞
Anyway, I legit have no idea what’s going to happen next. I suppose if you see me posting a new arc then just assume that my plans have been co-opted again as my Higher Self doesn’t seem to care about my so called plans — it just pushes guidance and inspiration whenever it wants and like a good little meat sack, I’ve been doing its bidding 😩😩😩
Hopefully, I can make some headway with my plans because if I remember correctly, my twin flame got *extremely* bougie taste and somehow I don’t think my current couch potato budget can afford those luxuries…
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! 😭😭😭
Could their tastes have changed over time? I suppose so. But usually, people with refined taste don’t go from high quality foods to mystery meat in a hot pocket unless they’ve suffered some type of brain damage or are feeling super adventurous. So, I’m going to do my best to turn this couch potato chaos baby into a trust fund lover chaos baby!!! Wish me luck! I’ll need it XD
P.S. I did like 10 sit ups the other day and for the next few days I think I saw God. Not the good type of God where I feel I’ve been touched by Heaven, but the meet your maker type that’s like maybe your Earthly existence is nearing its end soon and it’s time to move on 😫
SO. MUCH. PAIN.
I did not think 10 sit-ups could give me a near death experience 😵
Don’t worry. I’m recovering. At least I’ve stopped screaming whenever I go pipi… 😮💨